6.54 ( i need you )

i think... she areadly knows who i am writing inside the blog...
well.. i might hear some answers that i not really wish for...
so on the way frm ipoh to kl... i thinks alot...
well... 2day i didn't speed...
i juz drive 120 whole way... why?
because 1day she told me not to...
cuz speed is dangerous...
wel.. i am a speeder... after that she told me...
i try never speed... its amazing...
at least i know i can enjoy all the environment...
well not speed is fun... but when look at the green environment.. that's the best...
yesterday night...
i type the blog... its all about wad my heart wanna tell her... its not easy to said out by my mouth,
but at least i type it out...
i am not a guy that dare to said out..
but i did let her knows...
although confess are not reali sucesfull...
i did let u said somethings... well i hope to knows it also...
u can tell me...
i reali duno y this things will happen...
love come love go...
whn it come we try to said out...
but when it comes we didn;t try 2 said anythings, once it go...
we'll regret for life...
thats true...
last time i think of u might be accompany me and will consult me everyday...
but after later and later...
my feel grows towards u...
i dun know.... reali dun know why...
wad i need now is... not someone that will replace my ex.. but a ppl that i reali wish for...
wish to be together with...
the person is....
you.....
i swear... reali do...
i need you...

12.54 ( I Wanna Be With you )

i wanna be with you?
well hearing this song makes me think of many things..
the lyrics... [ I wanna be with you 'ai ni hao xing fu' ]
yep... love u is a very happy things...
but love doesn't means need to be together rite?
as long as the other happy thats enough...
I think of that also... but, a people that without love are the most suffers one..
I know i won't get her... but at least i said out what i feel...
bt doesn't know will she know about it.. or izzit because that day i was emoing... and i juz freaks out and told her... so it won't be real... i think so...
everynite on phone.. sms's doesn't means i reali like her...
I got everything in my life.. Y i still think i missing something in my life... izzit in my heart... i need some1 to replace of her?
izzit? I dun wan to hurt anyone anymore....
should i become a lonely guy better than a couple?
Lonely life are better or couple?
why everytime i think of date again?
Kenny... juz 4 weeks.... juz 4 weeks...
y so fast u think of that again?
should u think about ur studies?
studies is important, but I need some1 that will support me behind..
that will always said... Jia you...
Trutly, I reali wanna be with u... but u know.. hardly we reali cannot..
many problems will happen if we did that... I am thinking... My friend asked me...
u found ur partner in dinner and dance nite?
i hope so.. when that day comes.. i wanted u to be my partner that night... seriously... but will i get it?
we dun know.. God knows...
i never feel tired when i chat with u... no matter hw late...
what you want i will try to get it for u...
i'll lend a shoulder to u when u cry...
i willing to wipe off ur tears...
i will share my stories with u....
love should scarifies i know...
but love some1 shouldn't be together right?
i wonder when can i found my reali love one... that can appreciate our love?
seriously in my mind...
and i found out an answer for that question...
I love u... I like u...
I reali do...
and...
I wanna be with u....

(3.51am) My heart

2nite i feel kinda fustrating.. kinda moody... and some emo's
i am thinking... y my life turns this way?
i'm happy... happy to see all my friends in sweet condition with their gf..
chris u finally found ur happiness, jayson? are more better.. his gf treat him the best... stan.. wish u all the best...
I am not so lucky like u all... well.. i try to be serious in my date last time...bt what i get... infact of no return.. i still get hurt more deeply... wad i did not enough?
my mind keep turning here and thr...
well y love occur?
y did love hurts?
it keep spinning again.....
I've change... reali change... What makes dis happen?
today.. i told out wad my heart feels... my mind thinks... to her...
although its not a sucessfull answer or maeb yes i dun know..... but at least i tells out wad i feel towards her...
Kenny... are u playing? i am thinking... wad makes me feel that?
Hearing love story everyday... by taylor swift...
Izzit love story reali exists?
'You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess'
'This love is difficult but it's real'
Can i have a chance? chance to become better?
I'm single... Y i felt.. Single are very lonely... Couples are happy but many problem...
how 2 solve it...
I enjoy my single life? NOP! i doesn't
i wan some1 to care of... some1 that let me care... some1 that will worry about me... someone will said 'I LOVE U'
but.... will this happen?
I dun know... Reali dun know...
I hope God will give me a chance... Chance that makes my world brighter...
chance to make.. my life colourful... and covered with rainbow...

(1.26 am blog)

1.26am @.@
hmph...
juz wanna write a story out... and here goes...
well mostly ppl know i broke up d... but old dun go new dun come swt.. my dad told me dis..
vry sad that time.. reali duno wad to do... well... after i broke up... a weird things happen...
a gurl add me lolz...
in dis 3 week... or 2 week plus i duno la... we keep contacting each other.. hmph... although it is weird... but i feel non stress and only feel joyful when i chat with her...
non stress... well seriously.. everytime i chat or sms with her... wad we got only is laughter...
well.. her laughter that makes everything that are black in my mind turns white... means every fustrating things that occurs after i chat with her, everythings turn into a smile...
don't know why...
My ex hurt's me alot... thats fine.. i give up her! finally i did! How? 'She' always ask me not to think so much.. because there are many gurl's in this world.. why need to let her make u down?
everytime i need consult.. she will be the one... it's true.. 'True love are hard to find..' nva doubt it.. But in my mind... i always think... think... and thinks... should i try it once more?
let's continue, although we not always can see, but at least we contact each other everyday... long time didn't sms d... when i try back.. well thats fun... day by day past...
i duno izzit i fall into her adi or not... well.. boys are flower heart... bt not all.. i doesn't know i suit her anot? or i don't...
am i a good guy? am i good enough to give her wad she wan?
am i? can i? will i? my brain... keep thinking about this problem...
as time pass the answer will out... thats wad my friend told me...
Everytime the skies dark... i will think of her... evernite... everyday... can said as always....
but i can do all for my ex's but y can't her? hmph...
y dun i give a try again? can i?
Sumtings like magnet make me and her get closer... but.. i duno will she give me a chance anot...
well i'll wait... wait time to prove all the things... I hope she can see dis =)
[ If thr's a broken mend, I'll be ther for u ] seriously... i mizz u alot.. reali.. duno y... each time i heard ur voice.. is juz like... a new beginning...
I noe that will be a very big problem if we are together.. well we both knows... but
people said 'Do ur best' everything can slove... izzi?
What is love?
why love hurts? izzit because we dun appreciate each other?
Why question keep appearing geh....
maeb its because i am growing... need to think....
people are getting older and older... not younger...
well kinda tired... night... ( mizz u )

lame n bored day~

hmph... blogging at my friend house =(

using my friend laptop =(

So boring... mizzing someone.. who so unlucky let me mizz..

well 2day sky is dark... its goin dark soon also.. my dark means today is a rainy day...

i went out today take my so called tea time with my cousin =(

i am lost on the way to her home... kinda far swt... maeb i have been kl for too long duno ipoh road adi.....
Well at 1st i told her i am going to eat but duno eat wad, so i ask her to join along... then i try to use my GPS.. wakaus... i tot GPS's usefull but seems like useless.. bring me go wrong road de sob...
well at last i reach her home safe -.-
Sitting inside d car and think what to eat... think think? duno.. i suggest we go secret recipe...
well u noe.. how many branch that secret recipe exists in ipoh? count count oni got 3 LOL... then i decide to go jusco thr that one... well.. menglembu to Ipoh garden kinda far o... suweats... fine fine... cz i wanna go for the secret recipe cake =x
well... on the way.. my cousin hor... duno y she like to take out her phone and capture pict =.= curi curi capture my pict! bite u geh! Crunch!
haha.. reali nothing to do... fetch her frm menglembu send her back and go back my house that near jusco =.= lame... well i think i better sleep~
cuz 2molo still need 2 drive back to kl for attending my class =)
nitez~

Dunoe wad am i typing =x

Well... i slept kinda late last night.. can't sleep well... seriously..
well time passes quite fast.. every weekend i will be at ipoh.. but kinda bored afterall..
nothing to do, nothing to play, hang out at home only sms.. go out? cyber cafe or snooker..
although kinda bored but at least i can spent my time with my dear friends..
Today is father day.. well still planning where to have the dinner.. stan going to citrus... hmph...
well still planning... plan and plan.. still duno..
Lets talk bout my dad...
my dad, he's a very cheerful guy... in my heart no one can replace him know why?
i am a very naughty boy, since small i areadly become very naughty no one can stop wad i do... my spm result sucks.. but my dad still sent me to college.. i change 3 colleges but my dad still let me study at kl.. dad.. thx.. i appreciate it.. so i promised u i am going to study very well in dis culinary academy and never let you down.. oh my... i also duno wad i can wrote about my dad... but yet i still wish all father in this world 'Happy Beloved Father Day'
take a short nap @.@

hmph... feel like continue blogging again...
seriously i also dun like bloggin... but y i started to like blogging...
many things cannot said out but can said out frm here =)
well blogging usefull... it can cure me and cheers me up... but this is the 2nd choice la...
Kinda stress in my college... u noe,
i need 2 done my stupid jobs as a chairperson of my club...
dinner and dance are getting near... bt yet nothings have been done...
still thinking who willing to be my partner for that day? 19.12.2009
well anyone? haha
Theme 'Black And White' just like 'Angel Vs Demon' well is a masqurate night...
not bad actually.. =.= but can i do it o... its not easy and simple.... kinda hard also...
i think many things i need 2 did alone before my so called members will help me... i will fight alone dis war =x
its not easy for me to handle dis big project... well i never handle dis big project before.. hmph should said i never ever had a chance to handle it also lol haha.. kenny be brave! face it like a man... well 'Chef RIcky'Malu' said that before =.= 'sohai meh'
but yet, he's rite haha.. i doesn't wanted to lose my face down on them.. so i need 2 be brave to handle it alone and face it...
although it's tough but it is the way of growing..
stress, suffer, all are the things that teenager are facing of because thats is the way of growing in life.. or else how are u going 2 be mature?
hmph... lucky in my culinary academy... still have my best friends... well not more not less 20 of them only,
Dai lou ( zhi hao ), Andy teh, Xiao wei, Vicky, Daniel, Toms, brandon, Kah hong, Jie Wei, Jun keat, Triny, Ah sen, Jeff Lee Pei Chen, Joseph, Edison, JJ, Kong jian, Sophia the popiah, hmph always forget his name.. not least!! My Chef.. DEsmond Loo he is our father at our class =x happy father day ya!
thx to them.. they are the one that supporting me when i am at kl =)
at ipoh, stan,chong,liew,wong heng, ryan chang and jon not least alice and weng kin =) they are the one that always hang out with me when i back from kl thx guys i love u all...

Times Cure's

Kenny! well... time passes so quickly... it had been 3 weeks i broke up... well, if cannot be partner, still can be friend rite? yea i think so.. but start frm now after i broke up oni la... doesn't know izzit god give me this punishment or what, since i date last time, ever since i broke up i won't give a damn about my ex's bt now i hope to.. what i get is noting =x
Seriously, i cannot give up.. but, after sumting happen i try to get up.. well i did.. my friends, my family, thy always support me.. i love them.. doesn't means i lost u i lost everythings.. Usually partners are very sweet in the beginning, but after hard to say..
Today, hmph, should be saying yesterday.. chris told me about somethinggs, well ur ex are enggaged and start in a relationship, well thats true.. nvmind.. although i have been sad and cannot accept the fact.. who belive? my friends, my family, my sis... i noe.. without her i will still be enjoying my life... kenny be tough.. many ppl said that...
In this 5 month relationship, i get nothings frm her but i willing, cuz? nvmind... past is past...
i noe sumting happen's after that day..
Kenny are no longer important to her =)
yea... i told her before i won't date anyone except u.. and anythings happen i won't brake my promises..
well u did too.. but u broke.. y can't I.. but nvmind.. past is past... well.. wish u happy with ur boy
well 2day i went out with my cousin at jusco...
think of baskin robbin.. i promised her i treat her.. i did =) but hor
notty 'Her' doesn't finished it lol...
well dis cousin, kinda C and A
means? Cute and adorable... haha nothing can say much about her.. long lost cousin can said as =x bleks...